It has been months since I’ve written even though I’m still around. I still follow other blogs of women who had babies around the same time as Miss O was born. I want to come out of the shadows again and write a short post to update.
Miss O is 20 months old now. I don’t think I can even describe how attached to her I am (and so is my husband). Her little personality is developing more and more and she is definitely a chatty baby! One of my absolute favorite things she started saying a few weeks ago – “yuv you!” right to me while giving me a hug. Every time she does it I melt into a puddle. I keep wondering if these feeling of happiness/love will temper a little bit and they don’t seem to be at all. The opposite actually. She also says “yuv you” to one of our cats which is also completely heart-melting to me. I so wanted her to grow up and love animals, it’s really important to me. She actually said “yuv you” to that cat before she said it to my husband! lol He was just waiting for it and finally, she said it to him a few days ago. I’m sure it made his day.
She loves the weekends so much because she loves having the two of us both home from work the whole day. I’m still working part-time but a bit fewer hours than I was when I returned to work when she was a year. My inlaws look after her on the days I work.
Sleep is still a huge challenge over here some days. Miss O is fast on some things (vocabulary – I can’t even keep track anymore of her words and little sentences) and slower on others like sleep. I suppose it’s like that with every baby and sleep happens to be our thing. She also has started getting nightmares and sometimes night terrors. She had a night terror last night and it’s so upsetting and pretty much impossible to console her for about an hour after it starts. So the autumn time change extra hour of sleep blah blah blah – hahahaha!!! Not over here.
As for the what next? I don’t know. We are so enjoying our little sweet tornado that a big part of me doesn’t want to spoil that by having another or TTC. Time is passing by and I am already 40. I know my hesitation will end up deciding for us as time runs out. I suppose the decision is already there but I can’t be direct about it. It’s hard when I find out people here who have a baby around Miss O’s age are pregnant again and end up having a simple pregnancy. And that they have two pregnancies and two live babies. I am happy for them but it definitely makes me think. With my age and my history, I don’t know that I have it in me to try again.
So for now the days and weeks and months go by. I am enjoying my little girl so much and absolutely grateful to have one child. I still feel the gratitude almost every day.